For Those That Remember...

I wrote about love once
how it beautifully began
the way it made me feel
and then with tears streaming down my face
I wrote of the end.
In a World of fake my one truth is this
Love is Beautiful
It's special
And Vday is the day we celebrate what we feel
But there is also always those that celebrate the end
The hard,cold ,final end,When hope no longer remains
And after the end,Vday is just not so grand anymore
for most its the memories.
the echoes of happiness that faintly whisper in the back of the mind
reminding one that once,
once there was joy and love
and then there came the end
Remember...
This day is for those with the memories of truth
where their Love will always remain Safe.
NeverTrulyEnding.
Loving Endlessly <3

Wishes

So many Eyelashes..
Countless shooting stars
Wishbones,
Birthday candles,
Prayers
And more
I feel I simply cannot wish anymore
There is no magic chances
No answered dreams galore
Its merely me wishing wishes
And wishing to have to no more..

Suicide

The knife was there
The blade so sharp
My wrist lay bare and inviting
One little slit
Is all it took
To leave this world
Without fighting.
They think me weak,
Perhaps I am.
But they didn't have to feel it...
The endless struggle
The ever pain
My hope was just depleted.
So yes I did it
I truthfully admit
Perhaps some courage was all it took
I left this world
No long Goodbye
No see you soon
I broke your heart regardless
It wasn't you I left
It wasn't even me..
Perhaps I died so long ago
I doubt I'd even known
But when I made the slit
For a moment the world,
It parted..
And I regretted every missed
And beautiful moment I'm not part of.
My sadness shall remain.
But for you I wish much more.
There was no hope for me,as hope was there no more.
But within you lies a future..
A journey to be taken
Do not be the coward I was
I wish your hope is never shaken.
Live my love for me
As I am here no more..
But from my journeys end
I hope you learn much more
That life is neverending
Even when the goodbyes are left unsaid.
Its harder once its started.
But so worth it in the end

She..

She does not understand
That she truly holds command
Her smiles her sneers her tears
All make me show my hand.
Perhaps I am the puppet
And her the puppeteer
But if she'd only love me
I'd bend my head in cheer..

Nightly Shadows

Sometimes when I'm awake and alone at night
I whisper words to soothe
I tell myself a story
And hope no fears intrude
I dream of far off places
Of princely knights and Castles.
Sometimes I sing out loud
To drown out all the shadows
It doesn't work that often
But when it does I'm saved
For my nightly shadows often leave me so afraid..

Journeys End

Through the darkness I have walked.
Many Shadows have I fought
Battles lost and won.
Places and people,been and gone
The journey wasn't easy
It wasn't even ok
It was a struggles,struggle
An unnamed war for me to bear
But I arrived victorious
Finally enveloped in light,
Where no shadows dwell
And battles are faintly remembered.
The places are for keeps
And the people here to stay
The journeys finally over
The Destination is here :)

Not Personal*

Did you know that there's this completely untrue fabled myth that not everything is personal...
Seriously!
Some idiots really expect you to believe that...
Really expect you to accept all that goes on simply with the understanding that its not personal...
Well here's an unknown newsflash-It sure as hell is!!
Of course it's personal!! how can it not be??
Anything relating to a person is personal,anything that effects a person emotionally is personal!
That whole not personal hogwash is just that-complete and utter hogwash!!

Do you really wanna know what's worse than being told somethings not personal,,having that same idiot who told you that completely miss the fact that to you it is.

and yes one can say they didnt mean for things to get personal..
but how can they claim not to understand that once something affects your emotions-to you it's very personal!

So here's my advice,,
The next time someone tells you that whatever they did wasn't personal and to you it was..
Well then i want you..
To smack them in the face!!
Yes that's right I said it,,Smack them in the Face!!
and while you at it you might as well kick their legs.
No seriously smack and kick them!
Then maybe next time they won't be so quick to say somethings not personal when it really is and maybe the physical attack will let them feel exactly how one feels when a "not" personal something happens.

Because when it's personal and it so often is ..
Well it hurts!
And one might as well not hurt alone ;)

So Happy Smackings Everyone :)