Thursday 29 September 2011

Confidence versus Arrogance

There is such a thin line between confidence and arrogance, that I know many people that cross it without even being aware...
They don't believe their constant extolment of themselves in anyway resembles arrogance, they see it as merely a superior confidence than those too scared or naive to promote themselves. in short their pride out ways their modesty and they end up coming across as the very thing they profess themselves not to be -an arrogant individual who talks a good game but in reality is actually lacking in confidence, when you scratch beneath the surface you'll realize that all that awesome superiority is merely a thin veneer to mask their deep seated inadequacies. Deep down their really scared little boys and girls trying to be something they’re not!!promoting themselves, extolling their virtues, denying their faults....they become so enamored with being confident that they forget their actually not...one prick of their bubble and all that outshining confidence melts away as if it never was..

#Moral of the story-the most confident people in the world are those that do not feel the need to brag or extol on their confidence, they are aware that they are confident and realize that true confidence does not need to be flaunted or publically displayed...True confidence is discernible even when modesty keeps it hidden.
*Confidence is not achieved through your own promotion!*Extolling on your many virtues won't make you confident!!*Relating to the world the depth of your confidence does not make you confident. It only makes those around you aware of your complete lack of confidence, ending in pity or annoyance for your constant stream of positive virtues of yourself-basically annoyed at your arrogance#

Be Modestly Proud
Be Silently Confident
Be True To Who You Really Are....
I am a Proud and Confident Woman...Not because I show it..,but because deep down I know it.!

Hate from Within

I am Awed at your Stupidity,
Amazed at your Ignorance,
Blinded by your Negativity
and Confounded by your Hate
Till I realized you saw me as your Mirror
and so now,
I only Pity your Inner state...

Thursday 22 September 2011

"The Edge"

I am drawn towards the edge..
Unable to escape.
It whispers enticements into my ears
of Secrets and Wishes..
Promising more than hopes and dreams..
The Edge holds promise of Release
Closer,Closer...
Nearer still...
The Edge commands my will
Enthralled by visions of peace.
Drawn together..
ever nearer 
closer still
The Edge is my release..

Sleepless

Tossing and Turning
Throughout the night...
Struggling to sleep
without a fight.
All around me the World lies still
while inside my head,
against my will,
Battles rage
and thoughts plague me still
Constantly warring withing my head
Filling me up with constant dread.
Sleeplessly waiting for the final end
For my Rest to come with nights descent.

Can't Say,,,,

How Hard it is to say...
I'm Hurt,
I'm Broken,
I Need You.....
So Hard to speak the words...
To admit to Weakness in anyway
That deep inside I'm screaming..
My fears not held at bay.
They shred my deepest courage ..
and keep my hopes away..
and still I cannot say it...
Even though Its the only way
I'm Hurt
I'm Broken,
I need you...
Can't say....

Reality Revealed

I am often Saddened and Amazed
That nothing ever changes...
We switch our parts,and change the lines of our play
But in truth it always ends the same way......
The destruction of any one man comes not from outside influences but his inability within himself to fight back.

Tuesday 13 September 2011

My Friend


My friend,
I cannot describe the way u look.
Nor how rich with wealth you are.
Its been so long since we first met
I notice not your changes.
... nor the differences we share.
For when I look
I see not hair or colour
Nor the size of you and your wealth
I witness only the beauty
Of your gorgeous inner self.

Ego full..

Too Many Ego's on board Will Sink the Ship..

Acceptance

If We Cannot Blush at our Past,Laugh at Our Present and Smile at Our Future. We live Without the most Important and Key Factor to Having a Full Life-Acceptance of Ourselves.

~Innocence~

Innocence is more than ignorance
More than presumption
Its the ability to remain light
Even when all around you its dark.
The Beauty of Purity
Even when knowledge tries to destroy it.
Innocence is strength in the face of Adversity
And Courage in the place of Fear
It is Unique,Unquestionable,Precious and Divine
It is also Yours Alone

*Laying There*

I lay there in the Dark and felt the tears escape..
Rolling silently down my face towards my hair as if ashamed...
The tears flow gently on their own..
As if they don't belong to me..
And I lay there,
Alone,
Unnoticed..
And afraid.
Can the tears from my eyes not be mine?
They flow without control..
Without rhyme and perhaps without reason..
I cannot stop the flow..
And The stream has nowhere else to go..
My hair captures the remains and hides the secrets of my tears
And I lay there,
Feelin each drop...
And Trying hard not to feel shame..
As My tears reveal my secrets..
My fears...
My pain...
And so I lay there,
Afraid and Unmasked
No more defenses to my name..
Drownin in my shame..
And quietly going insane..
And I lay there,
Lettin each tear flow
Feelin every hidden,secret blow..
Until Eventually the end.
And Still I lay there...
There's nowhere else to go...

Thursday 1 September 2011

The Mother

There was an awkward pause as with bated breath she turned her steely glare upon those in front of her.
"you presumed you knew more,assumed you were in the right,and in the end we have all been sentenced."
there was not a whisper as she quietly uttered the condemnation.none had any refuge from the truth of her statement.they stood before her unmasked and sure of the roles they each played in the destruction of the World.they were aware of the complexities of the issue and yet each had still participated as if unaware.
"I have no refuge for any of you,nor even myself.Your  actions have condemned us all.There is no more to be said on this matter,We shall each deal with the repercussions that will follow on our own.It is enough that you are now each aware.Leave now and Pray that by some grace your actions repercussions leave you untouched for if not then I fear for your very souls!Leave now before the sun streaks upon the dawning sky and the true faces of each of you is revealed,I no longer wish to have you in my presence.Be gone!"
It was with jerky and uncoordinated movements that each and every soul present left,,as if her damning words had removed their natural grace and stripped them bare of their former  elegance.They were no longer the proud and stylish group that just a few hours before had been ful of their own importance.
with her words she had stripped them of every form of beauty,charm and allure that made them special and unique.they were now only withered shells of their former Glory.Each knew that they had made the choice and so would have to live with the consequences and repercussions.and not a one of them believed they would be spared.There is no escape from the truth and secretly most knew deep within that this had always been the preordained outcome.none expected a reprieve.
They slipped away as silently as they had arrived and listened to her words.never turning to see if their neighbours followed suit.each too caught up in their own fears of repercussions that the jovial band they were a part of just moments ago now seemed nothing more than a myth or ancient memory.
She watched them leave each and every last one of them.not offering a comforting word or parting embrace to any.holding herself stiffly upright she knew that this would probably be the last they saw of each other but still she could not relax enough to say farewell.The damage was done,there was no escape and as she watched the last slowly retreat into the early gray morning mist she released the pent up air she'd not even known she was holding and whispered quietly to the Earth "It is Done,Forgive us All" Then she too slipped away.And it was as if there had never been a meeting on top of the grass bank of a cliff overlooking the ocean,no witnesses to swear that just moments ago the cliff was inhabited.not even a slight indentation to alert a watchful passerby of the previous inhabitants just moments ago....The wind whispered through the grass as if sharing the secrets of the nights assembly.or cautioning not to spread the tale.
The sun had risen enough to cast its yellow glow across the grassy bank highlighting the different hues in each strand of grass as if highlighting the various shades in a womens hair,Had anyone been passing by at that exact moment they would of called the sight majestic.
As it was no one witnessed this enchantment just as no one bore witness to the speech she had given and the crowd that had assembled to hear it.No one would ever know the decision that had been made or the choices that had brought it about.Far below the waves crashed noisely against the cliff as if in objection of this secret knowledge.but the elements had no power over the ruling and there was nothing to be done as once more the waves crashed more forcefully against the  cliffs in even bigger objection to it's powerlessness.It realized the futilety of its actions and went back to gently lapping at the cliffs as if washing away invisible tears.The wind and the sun having witnessed the oceans actions and its futilety knew there was nothing they could do either.But to at least mark the event in the only way how the sun called forth the heavens and requested they too mourn the decision.bringing forth tears in honour of the fallen.The sun then shone more brightly and the wind blew more strongly creating a beautiful and spectacular rainbow right on the grassy bank where moment ago She Who created us all Gave over power to us all.And had all her angels retreat from their thrones of importance to become nothing but shadow protectors of everyone.They had begun to believe themselves superior and She feared they would soon have been to far gone to be saved.Regardless of their actions They too were Her Children and She could not bear their complete destruction so instead had sentenced them to eternity as protectors of those beings they had once believed so far beneath them,And had sentenced herself to an eternity of Solitude with only the prayers of her children and the elements to ease her loneliness.She would listen and council but would never actively walk amongst her children again.They would know her only through prayer and Her creation of them all,And the Love She had for them All which was so strong that if one listened to the wind closely enough one would hear of our mothers powerful Love for Us and the Terrible Sacrifice She willingly mad to keep us all safe.For with Their self importance The Angels would of destroyed Us All,Including themselves and The Mother could not bear to witness the Destruction of every soul she held dear,Each Angel would be tasked with a complex and formidable mission to atone for the crimes they had each hoped to make.They would need to be courageous and unstoppable,as only at the successful completion of their missions would they each have learnt their lessons and be given eternal piece.The Mother though Angry and ashamed of their actions Still loved Her Children enough to give them each one last chance to learn from their mistakes.but their tasks would not be easy and Even the Mother was unsure of how many would succeed.But Succeed they must If they ever hope to be more then mindless shadows with no true power to protect.In reality they were merely watchers of the beings they had thought so weak.soon they would grow to love,worship and mourn for those beings As the Mother had always planned.Then their tasks would commence and on completeion they would learn that Their protection though at first forced upon them as a punishment is now were they Each felt necessary and needed.none would ever forsake the beings they had once looked down upon,as through those beings they learnt how to love,honour and worship The Mother who had created them all and in her ultimate Wisdom had enchained them to the very beings who would give their lives more meaning and who in their innocence of the Angels presence with them would teach them to love unconditionallly.They would come to know inner peace as they had never truly known it before.
The Mother smiles,She to is at peace and watching patiently over all her Children.They continue to learn and Love and She watches them All,And is Happy.
Her Ultimate plan for them is achieved.
Live,Love,Be Happy..All of My Children .

Family

It is not the blood we share
or the vows we make
that symbolize your place in my life.
its the echoes of you I keep in my Soul
and hold safe within my Heart